I have no idea what I'm doing with my life at the moment.
"You're nineteen!" you say, "no one knows what they're doing at nineteen!" But I see my case as I a little different. I know exactly what I love and exactly what I want to do and exactly who I want to be. I'm just having trouble getting there.
I'm stuck in quicksand. Every time I think I'm about to make a confident step forward, something in me sinks lower and lower into depression and confusion, and I've made no progress.
About a year and a half ago, I graduated high school, ready and confident to take on the world.
I traveled to India, and came home early due to medical issues. I started school only to find that despite my love of learning, I hated the people, the atmosphere, the ideals. I had two jobs that both ended for reasons beyond my control. So now I sit here alone
I'm tired of being so frustrated and stagnant. I need to do things, accomplish things, be the best I can be.
I am planning my next step, though. In January, I'll be flying into London, and I'll be traveling through Europe for a few months. As excited as I am, this isn't progress. Where will I be or what will I do when I come back?
It's time for me to change. It's time for me to put my life back into motion. I've gotta set some goals, get some things accomplished, and be better than I've been. I want to learn, I want to write, I want to work hard, I want to get things done.
I know it's unlikely anyone will ever read my rambling. But it feels good to get it out into the world.
It's time for me to change, and I've never been more ready.
-K
"You're nineteen!" you say, "no one knows what they're doing at nineteen!" But I see my case as I a little different. I know exactly what I love and exactly what I want to do and exactly who I want to be. I'm just having trouble getting there.
I'm stuck in quicksand. Every time I think I'm about to make a confident step forward, something in me sinks lower and lower into depression and confusion, and I've made no progress.
About a year and a half ago, I graduated high school, ready and confident to take on the world.
I traveled to India, and came home early due to medical issues. I started school only to find that despite my love of learning, I hated the people, the atmosphere, the ideals. I had two jobs that both ended for reasons beyond my control. So now I sit here alone
I'm tired of being so frustrated and stagnant. I need to do things, accomplish things, be the best I can be.
I am planning my next step, though. In January, I'll be flying into London, and I'll be traveling through Europe for a few months. As excited as I am, this isn't progress. Where will I be or what will I do when I come back?
It's time for me to change. It's time for me to put my life back into motion. I've gotta set some goals, get some things accomplished, and be better than I've been. I want to learn, I want to write, I want to work hard, I want to get things done.
I know it's unlikely anyone will ever read my rambling. But it feels good to get it out into the world.
It's time for me to change, and I've never been more ready.
-K
